As most of you probably already know, my sister has passed away a month ago on May 09, 2007. She committed suicide by jumping off 21 storeys at my cousin's HDB block the fateful Wednesday morning.
My sister, Min Loo is going to turn 18 this August 19.
Her death made me see life in a new light. I always used to think that I was a pretty independent girl and to be honest; not really close to my family. Her death made me realise that this is not so; I finally realised that family is really important because they are the ones who ultimately care most for you and whom you have responsibility for.
It was surreal claiming my sister's body from the morgue with my Dad. Seeing my sister lying in the coffin, watching her get pushed to get cremated. Sometimes, I wonder if my sister regretted her rash decision and sometimes I wonder if I could have helped prevented the tragedy.
But somehow, deep in my heart, I know she is happy wherever she may be and is looking out for my family in whatever way she can. It hurts to lose someone so dear in such an inexplicable way; but life has to move on for the living.
I thank my sister for showing me that life is what you make out of it; you can choose what you want to do and live your life happily. That is exactly what I choose now; I want to make my family happy and most importantly, myself happy so that I can live on well for those close around me.
min on Sunday, June 10, 2007